This week at Ladybug-chronicles, the question was asked about doubt.
Noun 1. doubt - the state of being unsure of something
Throught the years, I no longer doubt the existance of God, I cannot as I am reminded of HIM daily, and I just have to look back on my life to see HIS hand at every turn.
I recall times when I did not think I would make it through situations, doubting whether or not GOD cared...where was HE? I would find that someone would come up to me...a total stranger usually, and I would be called to witness then pray for this other person, this has happened to me more than once...God showed me each time...I have wondered if these were angels, for altho' I have wiped away strangers tears, it was me that was cared for. Looking back on these same situations, I clearly see what HE was doing...a ha moments! I remeber my father telling us "hindsight is 20/20"...how very true.
My doubts now more relate to myself, decisions I make, and dare I ask "why" certain things happen. I doubt my decisions and whether or not they are in God's Will, I doubt...question Him as to why certain things happen (as if somehow I should be exempt?) I find myself unsure of the paths we...I have chosen...My doubt is more often in my own salvation.
Do I feel guilty....sometimes I do...for I am doubting what Jesus did for me...This in itself minimizes HIS role in my life.
"The LORD is near to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit." Psalm 34:18
This verse ....again God knows what I need....for this past week I am glad to have over. I don't know the cause, but sleep has not come easily for me...and it has impacted my whole family. This week, my spirit has felt crushed, and I have not sought GOD, as a result my heart has been heavy and my mood short, resulting in a constant feeling of defeat (a duh moment...God already won!)....
Father God...
Help me to guard my heart and mind from doubt, for this attacks the wellspring of life...Show me YOUR will Father, help guide my steps that I do not stray from YOU.
Grow me to be stronger in my faith, more than I could ever imagine.
It is through my faith and my love for you that I can embolden the servants heart I so want to grow to care for this family you have given me.
In Jesus Name....
AMEN
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