Anger, me and my LORD

As we grow older, I am learning that perspectives change, things that would have caused me to be angry in my youth no longer seem that important any more.

I do still struggle with anger, "its not fair" is often the cry, but my cries to my LORD tend now to be on behalf of others.

In 2004, my daughter packed up my grandkids and moved to Florida and I was angry, not with God, for I knew that it was my daughters decision, but with the fact that from the time in January when my first grandson was born, I had rarely gone a day without spending time with him, then my 2nd...my princess, then the 3rd, by answer to a prayer. I was concerned for their safety as the man my daughter married had already hit her, once when she was pregnant with my youngest and once when a friend had come to visit and he got angry...he actually threw a small table at her. At one point my oldest came to my home with a black eye and bruises on his arms. I suspect that her husband did it, but had no proof. I pray that the husband will turn to God and walk with HIM all his days. (They came back 6 months later).

When my father went into hospice and subsequently died, I was angry, but not at God, but for the way my beloved parents who lived solely for eachother, how they were treated, the staff was horrid to them. When my mother, sitting by my father side,he had been denied treatment, or treatment was delayed (the excuse..."I have 11 other patients" was not an acceptable answer. My anger was with decisions made by the nurses that directly contradicted my fathers needs and wishes. (I am grateful to my Lord for letting him stay with us as long as he did, I will always cherish the memories of my father having problems with blood pressure and it stablizing when my mother simply walked into the room, she did not have to say word....that, my beloved sisters/brothers in Christ is true love!) I pray the hurts caused to my mother by this staff will heal.


When a pastor refused to baptise my nephews because of something their mother had done, I was angry...both boys are now lost to God because of this. I pray for their salvation.

As I get older, I tend to blow when those who are dearest to me are hurt or offended by someone else.

Funny, Lynn...your questions for discussion....

Am I currently facing any disapointments?
Are they selfish or spirit led?

On May 17th, we will celebrate our 13th wedding anniversary. My beloved and I usually go out to dinner, or away for the weekend, just the two of us. I have spent this morning planning a long weekend for us, however because the kids' mom is not available, this one will be with the kids. EVEN if she were available, I don't want her in my home "unsupervised" as she will bring her sinful lifestyle into my sanctuary and the people she associates with it. I know this for she has done it before.

SO...
I am angry at satan for decieving my daughter...spirit led.
I am angry at my daughter, for abandoning my grandchildren and putting her selfish desires above them. Spirit-led
I am angry at my daughter for falling for satan's lies. Spirit let
I am angry at the fact that I cannot have an evening with my husband when we "should be" able to do that as we are the grandparent...Selfish...

What do I do with the anger...that is now the question...I can choose to rant and rave like a wild woman, in the process causing harm to those who are close to me and allowing satan a foothold into my walk with GOD, or I can pray that God will calm my heart, and cause my daughter to come back to HIM, for only through HIM can my prayers be answered.

I recall twice when Jesus became angered. Once was when he walked into the temple, the other was when the diciples were trying to send children away...both situations were offensive to the FATHER, not his flesh, neither time did he sin.

When we look at the FATHER. He does not become angry with us, but at the sin that separates us from HIM. It is the fact that we are harmed by sin that angers HIM. I am truly grateful that HE does not give me what I deserve...